The Sound House, Dublin: 21st October, 2019.
Tickets €15 Incl. Booking fee.
Doors 8pm | Over 18's | ID Required
Self Esteem announces headline October show at The Sound House
In the beginning Self Esteem was a joke - or at least a half-joke. A band name coined 10 years ago, by the singer Rebecca Taylor as two fingers to the insecurities and self-doubts that had long mithered her life. But over the past 18 months, Self Esteem has come to mean something more; the humour fading as the name has reflected the shift in Taylor’s own opinion of herself and her place in music.
Self Esteem took shape while Taylor was in a long term relationship with a woman, and it was only when she emerged from that relationship that she felt a new flash of vulnerability. “I had these mad attacks of wanting to be femme,” she says. “I absolutely lost my mind. I was like ‘I need to grow all my hair back! They want hot girl to come on stage!’” It took a moment for her to find her footing again. “I don’t hate men. Not at all, I fancy loads of them” she says. “But I realised: ‘I've spent my life trying to be what you wanted.’”
Discovering what she herself wants has been a gradual process. When she was still in the band her liking for hip hop was roundly dismissed. “It was just such a dirty thing I couldn't even explore,” she says. “But I remember everything changed when I heard My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy by Kanye. I used to just sit and play along to it on the drums,” she recalls. “And I still like those other things, I still like Bright Eyes, but it’s nothing compared to Destiny's Child Writing’s on the Wall, or all Rihanna songs.”
Several years ago Taylor began writing new rhythms that would become Self Esteem songs and eventually her debut album Compliments Please. “The first few were just banging on a table,” she says. “The rhythms start, and then I can just put a melody with something. It's all a capella. So then I would just harmonise with that. But I didn't play them anyone for ages, years.”
“Only now am I feeling like it's alright to be ambitious or have ideas. It's blowing my mind,” she says. “I was so girly, so submissive. And it's time to just be true. No one's gonna fuck with me now.”
Self Esteem will play The Sound House on Monday October 21st with tickets from €15 incl booking fee on sale Friday May 17th at 10am from Ticketmaster
Strictly over 18’s